sometimes i

i throw myself off
with feeling too much for something
and needing to connect with love

and i can't even stand my own wanting
of things so far from my reach that
the desire becomes too much
for me to handle

so i run as far away
from outside of myself
until i feel like a different person

and i am no longer the woman that
fell in love with longing and
i have abandoned all reason

so sometimes i
throw myself off
of the top of the tallest
building i can find within
screaming distance to escape
from this feeling of being apart
from falling falling deeply in love
until i just can't take it anymore and i am
no longer that woman who needs to feel alone


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